[ Kaveh spends most of those twenty minutes pacing, especially once Alhaitham doesn't reply straight away. Even before the other's statement, he's positive he's finally pushed it too far.
What he's not expecting is how much he dreads that fact, when it's been something he's been trying to do for years.
The truth is, after all, that Kaveh has never expected Alhaitham to want to stick around for too long. The younger man has his life together in a way Kaveh simply does not, probably never will, and the blonde's eternal fear is that of letting him in only to find himself pushed away when Alhaitham realizes what a mistake he's made.
It's easier, then, to do the pushing away himself. On his own terms. To say out loud that they're not friends, to threaten to move out in each and every breath, to complain loudly about him to everyone who will listen,
and yet
and yet, he feels sick to see the other finally acknowledge it for himself. Enough that his fingers shake and his eyes blur as he formulates his reply. ]
Since when has that stopped you? You've alwaus said exactly what you want to asy, whethr I wanna hear it or not so go on?
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What he's not expecting is how much he dreads that fact, when it's been something he's been trying to do for years.
The truth is, after all, that Kaveh has never expected Alhaitham to want to stick around for too long. The younger man has his life together in a way Kaveh simply does not, probably never will, and the blonde's eternal fear is that of letting him in only to find himself pushed away when Alhaitham realizes what a mistake he's made.
It's easier, then, to do the pushing away himself. On his own terms. To say out loud that they're not friends, to threaten to move out in each and every breath, to complain loudly about him to everyone who will listen,
and yet
and yet, he feels sick to see the other finally acknowledge it for himself. Enough that his fingers shake and his eyes blur as he formulates his reply. ]
Since when has that stopped you?
You've alwaus said exactly what you want to asy, whethr I wanna hear it or not
so go on?