[ Of course it's that that made Kaveh upset. Alhaitham has been careful to never say that they're not friends but never say that they are friends either. Because the truth of the matter is that they're neither. There is connection here, a bond that cannot be severed so easily, the two of them strung together by fate or luck or whatever you want to call it. Alhaitham can acknowledge that much.
Yet, he knows that Kaveh won't. He doesn't want to give, doesn't want to acknowledge Alhaitham as anything but his oppressive roommate, the bane of his existence, the reason for his woes. In order to feel better about himself, Alhaitham must be the villain. This is something Alhaitham has long since recognized about their dynamic and he's taken it in relative stride. His ego is not fragile enough to be bruised by something like this.
It also means though that there is no room for progression. Alhaitham only recognized his feelings for Kaveh after he came back into his life and quickly came to the decision that he would not reveal them to Kaveh. He knew it wouldn't be well received and that it would shake their already unsteady foundation. So, he kept it to himself.
So, they're not friends, and they're not lovers either, and Alhaitham just accepted that.
His mouth pulls into a thin line and his thumb swipes at the fresh tears that spill down Kaveh's face. He wishes it was easier to just... not take care of Kaveh. He wishes that for one moment, these feelings didn't crawl up his throat and make his heart hurt and shake him with the urge to gather Kaveh in his arms and try to make the world go away. Life would be so much easier if he could just truly disconnect. ]
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Yet, he knows that Kaveh won't. He doesn't want to give, doesn't want to acknowledge Alhaitham as anything but his oppressive roommate, the bane of his existence, the reason for his woes. In order to feel better about himself, Alhaitham must be the villain. This is something Alhaitham has long since recognized about their dynamic and he's taken it in relative stride. His ego is not fragile enough to be bruised by something like this.
It also means though that there is no room for progression. Alhaitham only recognized his feelings for Kaveh after he came back into his life and quickly came to the decision that he would not reveal them to Kaveh. He knew it wouldn't be well received and that it would shake their already unsteady foundation. So, he kept it to himself.
So, they're not friends, and they're not lovers either, and Alhaitham just accepted that.
His mouth pulls into a thin line and his thumb swipes at the fresh tears that spill down Kaveh's face. He wishes it was easier to just... not take care of Kaveh. He wishes that for one moment, these feelings didn't crawl up his throat and make his heart hurt and shake him with the urge to gather Kaveh in his arms and try to make the world go away. Life would be so much easier if he could just truly disconnect. ]
Kaveh...
[ A sigh. ]
What is it that you want from me?