[ As that one word falls off his lips, stolen between kisses, the pounding of Kaveh's heart in his chest only intensifies. He's asking for more of this, that much is obvious, but he's also seeking something else, something else he can't quite quantify. All he knows is that he wants his brain out of the equation, to stop the second-guessing and the fear in favor of letting him actually enjoy this the way he wants to. After all, the outcome after this will be the same regardless of whether it's stressing about it or not, so he should just—
Kisses press down the line of his jaw, his throat, teeth scrape against the skin, and Alhaitham tells him before lifting his head to stop thinking, and a shiver runs down Kaveh's spine. ]
Nn? Alhaitham, you—
[ Once again, the younger man knows him better than he anyone else possibly ever could. His breath catches, anxiety on his lips, but Alhaitham crowds him in until it's just the two of them, until there's nothing past him or around them for Kaveh to seek in the name of escape, allowing him only this and nothing else. Stop thinking, focus on Alhaitham and Alhaitham only, even as he asks a question that makes crimson eyes widen and well, with Kaveh's escape already taken from him. ]
I—
[ He chokes on the words, feels them clog his throat, the panic speeding his heart to an impossible degree; he's fucked up, he started this by kissing him when he should have just walked away, and now he's trapped,
and Alhaitham is in love with him
and Kaveh blinks, slow and unsure like he's awoken from a nightmare, eyes widening as he peers owlishly up at the taller man, as one hand falls from around the other's shoulders to fist into his shirt, all but clinging— ]
You are?
[ His voice cracks on the words, uncertain and unsure. ]
no subject
Kisses press down the line of his jaw, his throat, teeth scrape against the skin, and Alhaitham tells him before lifting his head to stop thinking, and a shiver runs down Kaveh's spine. ]
Nn? Alhaitham, you—
[ Once again, the younger man knows him better than he anyone else possibly ever could. His breath catches, anxiety on his lips, but Alhaitham crowds him in until it's just the two of them, until there's nothing past him or around them for Kaveh to seek in the name of escape, allowing him only this and nothing else. Stop thinking, focus on Alhaitham and Alhaitham only, even as he asks a question that makes crimson eyes widen and well, with Kaveh's escape already taken from him. ]
I—
[ He chokes on the words, feels them clog his throat, the panic speeding his heart to an impossible degree; he's fucked up, he started this by kissing him when he should have just walked away, and now he's trapped,
and Alhaitham is in love with him
and Kaveh blinks, slow and unsure like he's awoken from a nightmare, eyes widening as he peers owlishly up at the taller man, as one hand falls from around the other's shoulders to fist into his shirt, all but clinging— ]
You are?
[ His voice cracks on the words, uncertain and unsure. ]
Really?