[ there is a common liyuen saying with an illustrative story behind it. once upon a time, a merchant boasted of the wares he sold. 'this is the spear that can pierce all shields!' he proclaims, 'and this is the shield that can block all spears!' a child looked at him, and asked 'what happens when your spear meets your shield?' the merchant had no answer. the saying, then, illustrates: two contradictory principles, unable to coexist in this world. in this scenario, kaveh is like a creature trapped in the sliver of distance between contradictions, a walking paradox yet to be resolved. he stills beneath alhaitham's hands. it is not the stillness of a watching creature; it is the stillness of a creature considering fight or flight.
it is not unexpected. alhaitham is not disappointed. disappointment means having expectations. it means having a preconceived notion for the way events play out based on uncertain prediction. nothing about kaveh is easy to predict, but nothing about him is uncertain. kaveh had looked at the members of the research project, and reached out with both hands for an understanding that wasn't there. kaveh had been the one to hear his soul rendered bare and to turn away from it. kaveh had been the one to leave. you use reality for the basis of your predictions. you can use nothing else.
the chasm between want, and need.
in turn, alhaitham looks. kaveh pushes himself up from alhaitham's chest. in the moment, the third person in the room casts their shadow. but the third person in the room had always been there. it is a misnomer to think that the night is but one congruent darkness. individual shadows take form beneath a roaming mind; it is kinder to choose the now, rather than later.
alhaitham's hand rests along the nape of kaveh's neck. phonemes and phonetics form sound and meaning. alhaitham says his name: ]
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it is not unexpected. alhaitham is not disappointed. disappointment means having expectations. it means having a preconceived notion for the way events play out based on uncertain prediction. nothing about kaveh is easy to predict, but nothing about him is uncertain. kaveh had looked at the members of the research project, and reached out with both hands for an understanding that wasn't there. kaveh had been the one to hear his soul rendered bare and to turn away from it. kaveh had been the one to leave. you use reality for the basis of your predictions. you can use nothing else.
the chasm between want, and need.
in turn, alhaitham looks. kaveh pushes himself up from alhaitham's chest. in the moment, the third person in the room casts their shadow. but the third person in the room had always been there. it is a misnomer to think that the night is but one congruent darkness. individual shadows take form beneath a roaming mind; it is kinder to choose the now, rather than later.
alhaitham's hand rests along the nape of kaveh's neck. phonemes and phonetics form sound and meaning. alhaitham says his name: ]
Kaveh.