Kaveh's not sure why that's such a horrific thought in his head. Maybe it's because, without wine— without alcohol— he'll have to face sober the thoughts that plague his mind day in and day out. The grief. The guilt. Every single difficulty— ]
But... [ And his voice is rough, raw, Kaveh choking back the lump in his throat in an effort to make a joke, to hide the realism of the panic rising in his chest at the idea of trying to deal with all of this. If Tighnari knows he's going to pieces over the thought of not being able to drink, it will only solidify in the other's mind that he has a problem—
And he doesn't, he's okay, he just needs the worst of this time to be over— ]
But if I don't have wine, how am I going to get through Cyno's jokes?
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Kaveh's not sure why that's such a horrific thought in his head. Maybe it's because, without wine— without alcohol— he'll have to face sober the thoughts that plague his mind day in and day out. The grief. The guilt. Every single difficulty— ]
But... [ And his voice is rough, raw, Kaveh choking back the lump in his throat in an effort to make a joke, to hide the realism of the panic rising in his chest at the idea of trying to deal with all of this. If Tighnari knows he's going to pieces over the thought of not being able to drink, it will only solidify in the other's mind that he has a problem—
And he doesn't, he's okay, he just needs the worst of this time to be over— ]
But if I don't have wine, how am I going to get through Cyno's jokes?